So I'm home....

I'm finally home today and it's a very bittersweet feeling. I'm already homesick for the place I call my home now. Jesus is alive there and He is not here. It's hard for me to live the life I'm called to do so when my family members are the only Christians that I'm close to. I have no friends here that support me. I know it'll be okay though. God has me wrapped in His arms and He is never letting go.
So, before I came home today, I took a trip down to Hatfield, Arkansas for my room mates wedding. My room mate is Nikki Fisher, but now Nikki Cecil. Her wedding was very bittersweet. I was so happy for her because she found the person she was supposed to spend the rest of her life with. It made me wonder though if God does have certain individuals for certain people or if some of us are actually supposed to be alone. Through the pain that was in my heart that day, I pursued it with happiness because I know that all I need is my Father in Heaven. I know that either way, whether I find 'the one' or not God has me wrapped in His arms and I will always be good enough for Him.
God has a way of making me see things that I need to work on through other people and to also re-learn from others that I am still human and I make mistakes as well. It's good to have those reminders daily. I realize that I'm not who I am supposed to be in God and I need Him. I lost Him and now it is my job to find Him. I need to throw away my past and fears, so I can become like God and how some people put it, have 'short-term memory loss' of all my sins.
This was not supposed to be depressing journal and if some of you got bored I'm sorry, but I don't get to pour my heart out a lot and this seems like a safe enough place to do it. I hope that I can get on here more often so keep a record of all the good things God has done in my life. Through pain and suffering we grow to become like Christ everyday. I will carry my cross for His sake.