When the World Seems to be Ending, You Are Right There...

Things have been really stressful lately. Not with school, but just with life. I am just so confused about so many things. I miss my friends a lot, I need to get past things, but my heart and mind are not connecting, I need to be in a better relationship with God, but that has yet to happen. There are so many people I want to talk to. I want to be held accountable for things. I want other Christians to not judge me, I want to be loved. Everything just seems so out of place. My life seems out of place. I just do not have a plan.

My Bible Study group is reading this book called Uncensored and it is really good, but it reminds me too much of my past relationships and how they have messed up. It pretty much re-tells my life and I'm not okay with that. The reason I'm not okay with that is obviously I'm not over it. Something is still sticking with me. Maybe I feel ruined still or I feel like I ruined them. But God's grace covers me right? So why do I feel like this?

I know I keep saying it, but I really want to better my relationship with Christ. It is really important to me. I don't know what I'm going to have to do....I just seem so lost. I guess it is good that God's grace just keeps on giving. He loves me. That's all that I should be concerned about anyway. The world seems over most of the time. Sometimes I forget that my God is there, but I know He is. I just wonder what it is going to take for me to get back to the Brittney that trusted God to take care of my problems. I want that back.

I guess my prayer is for me to realize I need God more than I think I do. Will you pray for me and with me?